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Struggle To Survive

by Vacant Youth

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1.
My Toll 02:04
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Hate, it consumes my life, Madness, flows through my mind, Thought, no longer under my control, Overwhelmed by the endless toll. Paying for my mom, unstable and weak, Paying for my girl, depressed and bleak, Paying for the kids, uncomfortable and scared, Paying for my world, demented and snared. Trapped by insanity, driven by fear, I'm slamming a wall with full force at the rear, I'm shrinking into nothing, I'm crumpled in the waves, The ocean of pain takes me away to my grave. Paying for my mom, unstable and weak, Paying for my girl, depressed and bleak, Paying for the kids, uncomfortable and scared, Paying for my world, demented and snared. Trapped by insanity, driven by fear, I'm slamming a wall with full force at the rear, I'm shrinking into nothing, I'm crumpled in the waves, The ocean of pain takes me away to my grave. I am overcome with violent urges, My sympathetic feelings have all gone numb, I lose my mind as the anger surges, I only fear what I have become. A deadly swirl, a deadly descent, I ain't broken, I'm fucking bent, I've lost everything now I'm losing control, This bullshit life has taken its toll. Only friends are left, I am on the brink, I hate living life, I can't fucking think.
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Faux Friend 01:54
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You're fake as fuck, A lying piece of shit, I don't want to see you anymore. All I see is double, I know you're tricky trouble, Two-faced, double blunt, go die, worthless cunt. You suck me in, You sock me out, You show me what being a bitch is all about. I'm tired of changes, I'm tired of two, Stupid motherfucker I'm tired of you. Liars, cheaters, foolers, sluts, Reality ain't an option, you ain't got the guts. I hope you die in agony and pain, Then maybe you'd see how I live every day. You suck me in, You sock me out, You show me what being a bitch is all about. I'm tired of changes, I'm tired of two, Stupid motherfucker I'm tired of you. Who you gonna be? What you gonna say? Who you gonna be, At the end of the day? You're deaf, and blind, But you talk just fine. I've got acid in my lung, From your evil-speaking forked tongue. You suck me in, You sock me out, You show me what being a bitch is all about. I'm tired of changes, I'm tired of two, Stupid motherfucker I'm tired of you. Faux friend, Faux friend, You're nothing but a faux friend. Faux friend, Faux friend, Friend -- Friend or Foe.
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Fight to Live 02:33
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I grasp until I catch the wind up high, My strength inside prevents the roof's deny, I fight for reason, knowledge, and pride, Not any obstacle can stop my tide. The world may throw all that it can at me, It lurks and waits to pounce, I hold, it's key, The hardships fly like bullets coming fast, For take, they will, my strength to live at last. Despite what it decides what's best for all, The power's reach cannot prevent its fall. Despite how it brings down an iron reign, Authority control survives in vain. Submit to others, one must never do, Authority within yourself is true, We've got nothing to lose and everything to give, This is our fucking fight to live. Submit to others, one must never do, Authority within yourself is true, We've got nothing to lose and everything to give, This is our fucking fight to live.
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Tonight 02:05
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I've got a million problems, I've got more each day, I'm treading through all the shit, Trying not snap, don't know what to say. I hope I'll be okay, I'm alright tonight, I think we'll be okay, We're alright tonight. I'm trying to stay above water, Keep psychosis from brain, Trying to stop the mental corrosion, Before I go insane. I hope I'll be okay, I'm alright tonight, I think we'll be okay, We're alright tonight. We don't need to frown, We're not done tonight, We're not going down, Not without a fight. We'll be okay, We're alright tonight, We'll be okay, We're alright tonight, We'll be okay, We're alright tonight, We'll be okay, We're alright tonight. We're not here to judge, No need for brotherly grudge, No need to expect an attack, If you're one of us, We got your back. I'm trying to stay alive, Go where I gotta go, When life's got my back up against the wall, I go to the hardcore punk rock show. We'll be okay, We're alright tonight, We'll be okay, We're alright tonight, We'll be okay, We're alright tonight, We'll be okay, We're alright tonight.
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The Edge 01:05
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This kid is bullied every day, Pushed around he has no say, Why even come to school, When his classmates are so cruel. Bullied to the edge, No one cares until he's dead, He is fucking dead. No one gives a shit at all, They just stand and watch him fall, Until he is fucking dead. Can't change can't go back, Mindlessly they attack, Shotgun loaded this is it, Trigger pulled blown to shit. Bullied to the edge, No one cares until he's dead, He is fucking dead. No one gives a shit at all, They just stand and watch him fall, Until he is fucking dead. What the fuck, can't you see, You bunch of pathetic human beings.
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Wasted 02:00
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Alcohol does may things, Things that you have never seen, Things that you could barely stand to watch with both your eyes. It trashes people, ruins them, Fucks with all their greatest friends, Shit gets so bad it takes some of their lives. Think you're cool because you hit the bottle? Is that what you thought when you slammed the throttle? How do you feel now that your friend is dead? All because you were fucking wasted. I don't' need you and your idiocy, All your friends and their stupidity, If you want to go and fucking die, Go ahead, be my guest, I ain't going to vie. Think you're cool because you hit the bottle? Is that what you thought when you slammed the throttle? How do you feel now that your friend is dead? All because you were fucking wasted. If you think alcohol will make you really cool, Then you're just another one of them, another fucking fool, If you think it'll solve your problems, problems of your own, Then you better find a better solution before you're fucking gone. Think you're cool because you hit the bottle? Is that what you thought when you slammed the throttle? How do you feel now that your friend is dead? All because you were fucking wasted. Die.
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Who I Am 01:53
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I am a person, With feelings and thoughts, I care and I hate. You use me, you hurt me, You make me a tool, You take away my one dear right, And expose me, a fool. I can't believe I bought in, I trusted you, I loved you, You tossed me like waste, You don't know the pain I've faced. You use me, you hurt me, You make me a tool, You take away my one dear right, And expose me, a fool. So I don't give a fuck anymore, It's apathy for anyone but you, I wish you would die, but that's just a lie, Because I am a person too. I am a person, With feelings and thoughts, I care and I hate, Did you not believe me? You use me, you hurt me, You make me a tool, You are the real one, You are the fucking fool.
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Shit Society 01:33
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I'm trapped in a world, Where I'm forced to see, Society's disgusting atrocities. Lewd, crude, and no moral direction, Ignorance spreads like an infection. Everything I see, Fills me with rage, Like shit I got to witness, From my mental cage. I live in this filth, I hate being me, I feel so lonely, I can fucking see. Society is shit, Society is shit, Society is shit, I hate everyone in it. Society is shit, Society is shit, Society is shit, I'm going to throw a fucking fit. The pain, the guilt, I'm on a sea at storm, Alienated by the fucking norm. Life ain't got a reason, It doesn't fucking need one, What's the fucking point, Why am I still living? I'm a psycho, Can't let anything go, Troubles haunt me, They're too daunting, Thoughts crash in my head, Just want to be dead, Hate everything I see, Don't want to be me. Society is shit, Society is shit, Society is shit, I hate everyone in it. Society is shit, Society is shit, Society is shit, I'm going to throw a fucking fit.
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Free 01:32
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I'm all tied up, like a pup, I hate this part of growing up. All this work, I got to perk, Before I go berserk. I got no time, my life is mine, I got to get out on the dime. I'm so busy, can't you see, All I want to be is free. We're tricked to serve, by a curve, We barely get out with our nerve. Beat down, knocked out, I just want to shout. They think they know, the whole damn show, But I'm always about to blow. The social tree, it wants me, Fuck that shit I'm going to be free. It'll be the day, when I can say, I do my things my own way. It's all a taunt, so all I want, Is to be what I want to be. Fuck Authority.
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Neurotic Dysfunction 02:31
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I've made too many mistakes, Too many I'll always regret. I've got this obsessive problem, Where I never forget. I hold irrational grudges, Until the fucking end. They just keep adding up until, I ain't got a friend. Alone in the darkness, is my locality, I'm half-connected to, a fucked-up reality. I hold onto what pride I can, I don't wanna be anyone else, The only problem is, I fucking hate myself. My ability to tolerate torture, Is at a new low. I float in a sea of hostility, No friends, just foe. I'm just waiting for an exit, The only way to be free. Drop dead in perfect peace, That's what I need for me. Alone in the darkness, is my locality, I'm half-connected to, a fucked-up reality. I hold onto what pride I can, I don't wanna be anyone else, The only problem is, I fucking hate myself. I want out. Neurotic dysfunction is my strife, Neurotic dysfunction is my life. Neurotic dysfunction is my strife, Neurotic dysfunction is my life. Neurotic dysfunction is my strife, Neurotic dysfunction is my life. Neurotic dysfunction is my strife, Neurotic dysfunction is my life.
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Home 04:42
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Home is where you go, When morale is down, and hope is low. Home is who you know, Who you love, And it's always so. They can't take away your home, They will never fucking know, It's a place they will never go, This is your fucking home. The outside world is what we fear, Rest assured it can't touch you here. This where we make our fucking stand, This is where you've got a helping hand. They can't take away your home, They will never fucking know, It's a place they will never go, This is your fucking home. We meet the world face to face, Even though we walk at a different pace, We throw our lives against the wall, We've pushed too hard to fucking fall. They can't take away your home, They will never fucking know, It's a place they will never go, This is your fucking home.

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released August 25, 2013

Kyle Beauregard - Vocals
Ivan Delgado - Guitar
Angel Sanchez - Bass
T. J. Signaigo - Drums

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